When Stephanie told us that she was not well and the doctors believed she had cancer our world stopped ! - I couldn't believe what I was hearing! - What!!-This can't be true!-they must be wrong! oh God, please not my baby! - anything but my baby !!. Life as I knew it stopped. Every day tasks that you do without much thought were now impossible. Sleeping and eating were something others did but no longer me or at least not well. The fear of the unknown was paralyzing. I would have these crying spells as I know Stephanie and Josh were too. At night when I would crawl into bed and try to close my eyes I would beg God to help us through all this and then I would beg for sleep.
You see for someone like me, your typical "helicopter mom" - you know the one, the fixer of the family. The one who flies above her loved ones, especially her children ready and willing to jump right in when needed or even when not needed to assist in anyway possible to fix what ever wrong was going on in their lives but with this I was powerless. This I could not fix. This took my control and power away from me and left me weak but not for long.
When they say that knowledge is power that is an understatement. Even though it was tough to hear all the info from the Oncologist, each appointment told us more and we started regaining our strength, our power and our control. We are learning and doing what the doctor says and staying close to each other for strength. Our family is amazing. We rally like no other family I know. You guys know, we have had our fair share but we just keep getting back up !. We hang onto each other weathering the storms of life and through each storm we learn. Our dear friends and wonderful work families are an amazing blessing also.
We are strong and we will get through this by not being afraid but by taking back our lives and destroying this cancer !!
Love to you all,
Sue
All of your family is rallying with you, Sue (and Stephanie)! Even down here in Winona.
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