Well...my prediction about my hair was correct.  Ever since the last round of chemo, my hair has started falling out at an accelerated rate.  I've noticed it start to thin out around my hairline especially, but the hair is falling out from all over my head causing me to clean out my hair brush on a daily basis.  My scalp has been really sore all over the past few days, and I've been told that when this happens, the hair tends to really start falling out.  This just stinks.

I still have a difficult time keeping my emotions in check when my hair is the topic of discussion, but I know it'll grow back when this is all said and done.  Like I've said before, losing my hair is all a part of this process of getting better.  I just don't like not having a say of whether or not I want to lose my hair.   In a way I'm looking forward to getting rid of the hair because right now it's just a constant reminder to me that I have cancer, and who wants that kind of reminder in their life?  Not me! I'm 27 for crying out loud!  I should be experiencing the joy of starting a family or taking a fun vacation with my husband; not battling cancer.  This may be the point in conversation where I'd say, "it's just not fair!" but I know that life isn't fair.  We're all fighting some sort of battle, and my battle is no more or less important than yours.  Things like this make us appreciate the good things in our life that much more, and gives us a new perspective.

I've been taking some long walks while it's still nice out, leaving my iPod at home so that I can really take in the beauty of what's around me - The sounds of people raking the fallen leaves or the laughter of children playing in them,  the crisp air in the morning and the sun's warmth on my face in the afternoon.  It's my time to clear my mind, to reflect on life, to speak to God, or all of the above.

When I go in for my forth round of chemo this Friday, we will schedule the PET scan which will give us a good indication of how well the chemo is working and if we're on the right track.  I feel pretty good these days, and pray this cancer is melting away!  The overwhelming amount of support and love you have all provided Josh and I is truly amazing and continues to give us strength and hope.  Even my Oncologist keeps telling me how good I look and that I'm really doing well throughout this whole process which is encouraging.  The side effects have been minimal from chemo and I've been able to continue a fairly normal work routine this whole time.  There are a lot of things I don't know, but what I do know is that this cancer chose to mess with the wrong woman!  I've got too much living yet to do in this world =)