My PET scan results show little change from my last scan.  Sure, I'm happy, but I'll admit that I was slightly disappointed by this news of "little change".   The second scan was so dramatic that I guess I set my hopes up for this one to be just as dramatic.  I don't really know what I was thinking.  The important thing is that we're still moving in the right direction and the chemo is doing what it's supposed to which is kick this cancer in the butt!  The mass size in my chest has shrunk a tad and it looks like the scar tissue has broken up a bit.  There is still a small spot in the center of the mass that appears to be active cells, so the decision has been made that I will finish out all 12 rounds of chemo, have yet another PET scan done, and then make a decision at that point whether a round of radiation is necessary or not.  February 3rd can't come soon enough.  

Of course they weighed me and took my vitals before I saw Dr. Londer, and to my surprise I've gained another 4 stinkin' pounds since my last chemo.  4 pounds in just under 2 weeks...Really? ...REALLY?!?  That's frustrating.  I've been working out on a fairly regular basis, and my eating habits are not terrible.  Yes, they could be better, but it's not like I'm sitting around stuffing donuts and ding dongs in my pie hole.  I think what's happening is these steroids I'm on are assisting in keeping my weight up, and when I'm working out, I'm bulking up.  I want to continue working out to keep my heart strong and my weight in check, but clearly my weight is not in check.  It's going up whether I work out or not, and I'm NOT pleased.  If I keep gaining weight at this rate, what will the scale look like come February 3rd!? 

I've never had to diet a day in my life, but something needs to change.  I hate the word diet.  It really just comes down to moderation and the concept of calories in vs. calories burned.  Sounds simple enough, right?  My mom gave me a couple Weight Watcher books to look through that lists out food options and their point value.  I'm hoping I can learn a little bit about the program, and try to make some better food choices to assist in dropping a few pounds or at least maintain a healthy weight.  I think part of my problem is simply lacking self control when treats are put in my face, especially when chocolate is in the equation.  Christmas is a few days away, and I have now been gifted 3 sets of homemade goodies - cookies, fudge, truffles, peanut brittle, etc. etc. etc.  This is no bueno!  Could I have picked a worse time in the year to attempt to cut back?  I don't think so.  I'd really like to not be one of those people that says, "I'll start my diet after the holidays",  but I may not have a choice if I want to be successful.